Loving the "Inside Man"

"When I'm good and ready, I'm gonna walk right through the front door".

 

For years, I've never known what love had in store for me. Afraid of it...calling myself monogamously unfit because a person can only be as faithful as their options..no? Breaking hearts everywhere...wanting what I want when I wanted it no matter who I had to hurt to get it. Open off the thought of love...it sounds more appealing than it actually is...or does it? Welp..that usually comes to an end once we meet the mysterious one..the one who you just can't seem to figure out but you can't live without. The one who doesn’t jump to every command or answer to every beck & call. We all have that one person who we could never conquer..No matter how fine and bad you are, no matter how good your sex and head game is, no matter how good of a chef you are, no matter how supporting and loving you are...He would only give you just enough (which could be mental or physical) to be able to come back whenever he feels like it no title, no commitment, no nada.

     

     Well I call this kind the "Inside Man"...for years he's studied you and figured out that although you might have changed for him you still are not good enough to be more than whatever he's giving you. He would make love to you, question you, may even take you out, show little signs of jealousy, and be there for you whenever you want to talk. But as soon as you mention wanting more...he declines and you say to yourself and your friends "I'm threw with his ass" but you really can't let go. He doesn't call, he doesn't text you and he's showing you that he doesn't care but you still don't take it for what it is. All your friends hate his ass and can't seem to figure out why you can't see the aint shitness. Eventually, amping you up to leave him alone for some time..but when you finally see him again after a week, month, year or whatever..all of the same feelings come back and you say to yourself this time it's going to be different..one night aint gone kill me.. because you don't feel as weak and hey he has great sex. 

    He knows you better than you know yourself at this point. He knows what he has to do in order to get what he wants and for however long he wants it. In your mind, you're convinced he still cares about you because he keeps coming back but all he does is steal. He steals your heart, mind, and body. His truths are lies, his behavior is an act, and whenever he gets tired of you he gets the hell on…if this sounds at all familiar then yep, you’re or were a victim of the “Inside Man”.